Being Selfish

I have had several conversations lately with other parents about how much I just long to be selfish again. How weekends are never a time for relaxation when you have kids. I have thrown myself a pity party about how tough it is to work full time, run a household, and still have time to play with your kids. While doing it all...you lose your abilty to sometimes put yourself first.

Today I was determined to "spoil" myself and be selfish. I was able to get off of work early and I was so excited to go get a pedicure and manicure (something I haven't done in quite a while). I headed to a new nail place in town figuring I would give them a shot at some business. I was hoping for an hour of relaxation and me time, but I quickly learned that was not going to happen. What started out as a less than adequate pedicure, soon turned into a horrible manicure when the girl filed my nail so hard that I started gushing blood. I first acted like it was no big deal and tried to be nice about it. But after 10 minutes of constant bleeding I had to "woman up" and just say that I needed to be done. The girl felt horrible and gave me a $5.00 discount on the pedicure. I paid her and said, "Normally I would tip you, but I hope you understand that in this case I just can't". She understood and I am sure was embarrassed.

So what have I learned in all of this?  Well I guess I was given a little reminder that it is not always good to be selfish. I know I still need to have my "me" time, but maybe I need to appreciate the busy, selfless life I have and stop complaining. On that note, I am off to pick my kids up early from daycare. They may be the reason that I am not allowed to be selfish, but they are the reason my life is so blessed and that is something I am truly happy about.