Remembering Megan

Many of you know who Megan Christopherson/Hoisington was. She was a friend to me and probably a friend to many of you too. So when her life tragically ended just 3 days after getting married, my heart was crushed. Megan's death probably hit me so hard because she was the first person close to me to die. I struggled for years....and I mean YEARS, on how to deal with or accept her passing. It wasn't until last year when I came across a youtube video that I finally got some closure. The video was made by a boy in high school who was suffering from a terrible heart condition. He told his story in words written on post cards. His story involved 3 near death experiences and what it felt like for him when they happened. One in particular happened while he was in school. He fell over in the hallway and remembered people rushing towards him. He writes that he left his body and was looking over himself as people worked on trying to revive him. The part of his story that hit me the most was when he said that his body went to a  big white place and the minute he entered that environment he felt overwhelming feelings of peace and happiness. On the card he wrote, " I felt so good, I did not ever want to leave". I remember reading those words and thinking, doesn't he know that he has a mother at home that would be crushed without him? Friends that will miss him? I thought how could he not want to go home to his friends and family. And then it hit me! This is where Megan is. She is in a place so much more wonderful than here on earth. She feels no pain, no sadness. And although I still miss her, I now truly believe that she is in a better place.

So as I cry tears of selfishness that she is not here with me, I realize that she is living a much better life in heaven.

So let me now take some time to reflect on all the things that made Megan so special to me.

* Megan could talk, and talk and talk! She spoke so fast on the phone with me that I often had no clue what she was telling me about and I would just agree, or say "no way" hoping that fit in with what she just said.

* Megan hated cotton balls. Wierd I know. She hated to touch them! I thought it was so strange that in college I would randomly mail her packages of cotton balls just to freak her out :)

* Megan liked getting her way :) who doesn't right? She would order around her highschool boyfriend when she broke her foot, yell at her brother for just about anything....and all I could do was shake my head and laugh at what she could get away with.

* And most importantly, Megan valued her friends and loved her family. She always seemed to yell "I love you" to her mom, dad and brother when leaving the house. She called me almost weekly when she lived in Colorado just to stay in touch!

I know Megan's mother still misses her dearly, so I want Dawn to know just how special Megan was to her elementary, high school, and college friends. She will be forever missed and one day we will all see her again. Until then, I believe that she is talking the ears off of all the other people in heaven!